Dropped?: Mushishi

... This was not what i expected to happen.
ever since this show came out in 2005 people have been telling me this show is made for me.

Then i stopped hearing about it for a few years.... after having said i love Natsume Yuujinchou people said i would probably love this show as well...

and i just.... i just don't... and i don't get why i don't like this show....

it has all the elements of a show i tend to like.
it's kinda slice of life...
it has lots of supernatural elements...
it has amazing music.... an interesting look....

Why the hell do i not like this show?
i don't get it.... this show is tailor made to my personal likes.... i should love this show.... it should be right up there with Natsume yuujinchou..... why isn't it? WHY.

hm.... maybe i need to compare.... 

Some ground rules to this compairison...
as the name suggests i didn't finish Mushishi.... i gave it 4 episodes and after this i may try and give it more but i highly doubt it....
since i only made it 4 eps in..... i will only compair the first 4 episodes of Natsume which include: The Cat and the book; The Dew God's Small shrine; The Mysterious Person at the Eight Fields; Shigure and the Girl

So in the first 4 episodes what we know about Natsume:
1. he sees spirits though he really doesn't want to.
2. though he is afraid of them at first he can't help himself from helping him.
3. he feels weak and powerless and in need of a bodyguard despite the fact he can punch out demons with relative ease.
4. due to the fact that people tend to shun him when they find out the truth he keeps it all to himself... even when he finds people who would probably accept him.

in the First 4 wpisodes of Mushishi what we know about Ginko:
1. he can see Mushi and is some type of researcher.
2. he goes calling himself a mushi master, everyone knows this and they ask him for help.
3. he knows a lot about mushi and can cure humans who are being affected by them.
4..... um.... he only has one eye and smokes?

i think i see why i don't like this show.... I don't like Ginko....
he can solve all the problems way to fast.... now i think this is a fault of the pacing of the Anime not necessarily present in the manga.... 
it's been four episodes and he has had no character growth yet.... by this same point in NY Natsume is already starting to open up his heart to the spirits and see that they are not all bad.... am i being unfair cause i haven't seen it all... yeah probably but dammit most north american dvds at that time only had 4-5 episodes on one disk... had i watched this on dvd this would be a definite dropped because it didn't capture my interest in nearly an hour and a half of my time.... keeping in mind i came in expecting really good things....

now i should clarify... this show is really good.... i just didn't like it... it didn't resonate with me but that doesn't change the fact that this show has won a lot of awards and for good reason. it deals with some really deep and interesting and thoughtful ideas.... it really makes you think....
But i don't like the main character... at all... and unfortunately it taints the rest of the show for me...

now to be fair.... it is all on netflix and i may try and give it another batch of episodes... but again.... i gave it the same amount as would be on a dvd AND one more then i normally give anime i'm not sure about... normally i stop after three.... but i wanted to like this and some shows take a while to get into the swing of things.

if anyone has a suggestion of "watch this this episode and after that you can decide if you like it or not" please let me know cause part of me really wants me to keep going and see why everyone loves it so much.... but the other part thinks that if i don't like it by now... whats going to change... and if the answer is watch all 26 episodes.... then no... i'm sorry but thats too much time on something i'm just not into....

ugh i'm so disappointed.... i really really really wanted this show to be amazing... and it probably is.... i'm just finding it hard to give it anymore of my time...
Grrr i'm so conflicted....